Hi Kurteousmaximus! Welcome!
One thing you will love about this place, as I did/ do, is that there are people who share your same experiences, who will understand right away... w/o a lot of explaining.... what you are going thru ;)
They also have great ideas of how to survive the mental anguish the WT loads on to your brain. It helps you sort things out, feel better about yourself, see who the real villain is. Just being able to express yourself helps, right?
There are people who believe in God, in some form.... others are atheists... agnostics, some are evolutionists, undecided, all kinds... but we all know what the WT has done to many people, and are empathetic to the dilemmas you are going thru.
Hang in there, who knows? there may be an exJW that lives close to you!
cha ching!